As we officially enter the holiday season with tomorrow being Thanksgiving (where did this year go), I wanted to take the time to share with all of you the things that I am most thankful for this year.
As some of you may know, I had a bit of a rough start to the year and had to make one of the hardest decisions of my life. For the first time ever, I was forced to start leaning on
some of the people in my life, and I had to trust them to carry me through a tough situation. Now, for those who don’t know me that well, I try my best to be as independent as I possibly can be with certain things, and I hate the feeling of having to ask others for help because I don’t want to be a burden. But in asking for help, I learned who I can count on in this world, and who was weighing me down. And honestly, this rough situation really helped shine a light on the aspects of my life that I am the most grateful for.
Growing up, I was never someone who was considered “popular”, so I didn't really have a lot of friends. I always valued quality over quantity (andddd part of it was probably my strong introvert tendencies). But I do have a few friends left from my high school/middle school/elementary school days, and there are some that I don't see, that I miss dearly, but happily cheer them on silently through social media. One of my old elementary school friends was actually in my wedding this year, along with my best friend from high school, and I was incredibly grateful for that.
There was always a part of me that was concerned that since I didn’t have a lot of friends that carried over from my past, I would have a hard time making friends in the future. But looking at all the new friends I have made in the past few years, and seeing my old friends and new friends come together at my wedding, I realized that I have such a great support group full of diverse individuals, and each one of them holds such a unique place in my heart. I’m usually not very good with showing my appreciation for people because as an introvert, people scare me. You honestly never know when someone’s going to walk out of your life, or when someone’s really not interested in being your friend, or even when someone’s going to intentionally hurt you. So I usually tend to keep my distance with a lot of people - but this year I realized that I don’t have to anymore.
People come and go, but to be honest, the ones that go usually weren’t worth keeping, and the ones that stick through the rain and the mud and all the shit life throws at you, they’re the good ones. They’re the ones that you thank god for every damn day. They’re your people.
So this year, I wanted to give a huge shout out to my people - the ones that push me to do things that are out of my comfort zone, the ones that continue to invite me out to things even when I’m grouchy and unpleasant to be around, the ones that continue to offer me a shoulder to cry on at any time of the day, the ones that support my dreams no matter how crazy, the ones that let me vent for hours on end about the same things day in and day out, and the ones who invite me to their family’s Thanksgiving because they knew my husband had to work.
This life is a crazy ride, but as long as you have a few good people in your life, it's not so bad. So thank you to my best friends in the entire world. And a very special thank you to the man that made it all happen this year.
Angel, you make this life absolutely amazing, and I will NEVER be able to thank you enough for everything that you've done for me through the years. Because of you, my life has changed for the better, and I'm so thankful that I get to spend the rest of my life with you.